potrait of daily life..

At the first time, as a medical student, i always imagine that coass life would be full of scientific activity. Nothing more n nothing less. Kind of naive way of thinking i think.. And yes, as time passed by i realized that there’s so much more than just a scientific activity in this medical life,

there’s so many unique-almost-crazy-people inside it, including several of us, the coass.

Can you imagine there’s a doctor who intentionally killed his own patient without any guilty feeling on his mind? They usually reasoning their act because the patient doesn’t have any chance to survive, or even if they survive they will have a disability to live normally, will be an invalid person. So, why we are waiting so long for their death? And we are the doctors, we can do everything we want to human being without anyone know about what we’re doing.. Want to bring us to the court? no way.. We’re the one who give them medical therapy, we’re the only one who know what we give to them.. And we’re the one who write the medical record..

hmm.. Logical, rationally, orderly and cold blooded thought of mind..

I think he has potential to be a serial killer..

Other story, there’s a surgeon whose hobby is carving his operating assistant’s name (us..the coass) ON the SCALP of his patient skull using drill or screwdriver. He say, its okay.. It wont hurt him, it only gives scratch on his skull..

sick..

Maybe it wont hurt the patient.. but IT IS definitely damaging our mind remembering that our name carved on the patient’s head.. yet he say, “if the patient die, he will haunt you to the grave.. hahaha” and we show our forced-artificial-smile-indeed desperately..

Have I mentioned about the love life at medical life in hospital? Well, one of the stories is about the secret affair. Secret affair between doctor and doctor, doctor and nurse, doctor and coass, coass and nurse, doctor and pharmacy detailer.. Lately, international branded pharmacy corporation always use a young, pretty and sexy girl to offer the medical products to the doctors. Because they know, most doctors love chicks. They love them so much. It was an ordinary story and a public secret.

I just remember, there was a resident (doctor who take a course on medical speciality program) said to me that in every surgeon’s conferences in anywhere else in Indonesia or abroad they always ask a lady escort to accompany them at leisure time.. he said to me “Every doctor (man) love women beside the one they have at their home, but they always pretending they don’t. Only Surgeon who acts and speaks as their mind say without pretending anything..”

I don’t know the reason why they do that, for lust or only for the sake of fulfilling the taste of superiority.. Even the kindest lecturer who has an innocent-baby-face-looking and always doing everything in the right place, do the same way like them.. My senior was the witness of it. He saw him sitting in his chair with the pharmacy detailer on his lap.

Unbelievable..

I think it’s like a religion which is followed by number of doctors here..  and I give pressure on this, only part of them..

not all of them like this..

First it looks like i quite shocked when i know about those all at the first place, meanwhile my dad is a doctor and my mom is a dentist.. Somehow they gave me a picture that a doctor is identical with high intellectual, clean, white hearted, honest, and always doing something good..

but with time passed by, i know that was an old fashioned way to think like that about a doctor..

But somehow, deep inside, i can understand why they do this.. Okay, to think about it, everyone who want to be a doctor must went through several phase in medical faculty which is not normal for ordinary people.. First,  in the second year of the study one need to face lot of dead corps every single day.. not only seeing and watched it and say bye, but also touch it, grab the organs, smell it, cutting it in order to learn it.. sometimes we even eating beside of it..

Second, at 5th and 6th year we’re in hospital facing the patient directly.. and.. somehow, when doing physical examination often we need the patient to open their clothes..

Okay, imagine if a doctor have 20 patient everyday, and 10 of it is a woman.. so a doctor would see 10 different naked women everyday!

and if the doctor is an obstetricians, he will do “vaginal tussae/VT” (inserting 2 fingers inside the vagina for diagnostic needs) when examining his patients.. think about it, if one patient need 5 times VT and there were 10 patient, so he will do VT 50 times a day!!

no wonder if it makes his sexual orientation dull..

other example, a surgeon, almost everyday he cut living human’s organs with blood all over his hand.. cutting the gut, stomach, amputating finger, screwing bones, sawing skull, and many others.. maybe for normal people, what they done is crazy things to do..

i think.. somehow..

every doctor have a potential to have a psychiatric disorder.. maybe its because an amount of abnormal thing in their daily life stuck and mount up in their head and start to damaging their brain..

Well now i found myself as a doctor wannabe..

would i be like them? i hope not..